Tuesday, March 15, 2011

The first month of the winnipeg twist

This has been an unusual month. I started my time off at my aunt and uncle's place as a place to crash. I spent the first few days resting, however survival mode kicked in pretty quickly making it mandatory for me to start looking for work. I started my search a few days after being home and spent a week getting my resume ready and applying for jobs and three days interviewing before getting a full time job begining the same week. Within 10 days of getting back to Winnipeg I had a job and was able to start that same week. This has made my time here fly by as I have started to adjust to both the weather, the culture and the work routinge.
I was hired on at a place called Steps Resources which is a new company working with CFS youth helping them to get into independent living or back in school. This program is designed to fill some of the gaps in the child welfare system. I am enjoying the philosophy and some of the work within the program however I am continueing to pray about the duration of this job as I have not been terribly happy with the leadership and logistics of the philosophy, however the job meets my financial and time needs for this time in my life. I am working Monday through Friday 8:30-3:30 and have weekends and holidays off.
I have also found a place of my own and moved this past Saturday. I am now living with a couple and their two young children from church. I have been here for a few days and am enjoying the interaction of family life and the presence of the children.  This arrangement suits my needs for the time being and is available for however long I have need of it. I am excited to have the opportunity to save my resources in order to pay down my debt.
Which brings me to the other interesting piece of news in my life. I am in the process of purchasing a new car as my infiniti Nissan needed 3500 dollars worth of work done on it in order to safety it in Manitoba. After having purchased the car for 1800 I did not want to put that amount of money into it as I would never get that kind of money out of it if I were to have it written off. It seemed more prudent to buy another car for that amount of money than to spend the money fixing my car. I have purchased a 2007 Chevy Aveo, with a fair number of km however it was used as a fleet vehicle and as a loaner car for the garage where I bought it. The owner has maintained the car the whole time and just did a safety on the car, therefore fixing anything that was wrong with it. The fact that I was even able to purchase this vehicle was nothing short of the intervention of God. Last night on my way home from work my brake hose broke, leaking fluid onto the brake pads. I was hoping to be able to get another month of use out of my car however that was just not possible because it was going to cost me 700 dollars to put front brakes on the car.  The mechanic who looked at my car was the same one who had the Aveo for sale therefore I decided to go with the purchase of the car instead of having mine fixed.
There are still many decisions that must be made but I am thankful for having some of the big decisions made and the amazing support I have received in the process. For all those who have supported me and asked how I am doing thank you. I have a new address and phone number if you have not received it and would like it please either email me or send me a facebook message. I would like to get everyone. Please continue to pray for the Lord's guidance with work, housing and car and the many other decisions.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Destination Winnipeg

Well after a long journey I have made it safely home to Winnipeg. I am currently staying at my Aunt and Uncle's until I am able to get on my feet. The journey home was long and hard. I spent 40hrs driving and went through two storm systems. The journey took me an extra two days longer than I expected due to the weather and needing to take it slow. Monday I did an 8 hour day and made it from Fresno to Flagstaff Arizona about an hour from the Grand Canyon. When I realized I was so close I decided to back track a little bit and take a trip to the Grand Canyon except that I got up there and couldn't see because of the weather. A big dissappointment but I will go back and see it again. I then left there and was planning on doing a 12 hour day and making it to Texas however I got stuck in the storm that struck the majority of the USA. I ended up staying just outside of Alburquerque New Mexico for two days waiting out the storm. This decision was made after I did a 360 across the highway because of the ice and snow that was coming down. Thankfully no one was beside or in front of me. I came to a stop in the snowbank and decided that I was going to stop when i saw four major accidents. This stop put me at 4hrs from my desired destination with no idea when I was going to get on the road again. I decided to wait another day rather than chance getting stuck on the roads as they were still pretty bad. I left New Mexico on Thursday and drove for 12 hours making it to Kansas city area. This was one of my intended destinations, however this was supposed to be for wednesday. Upon arriving in kansas city i had planned to spend a couple of hours at IHOP before continueing on. I ended up spending a full day there which was an amazing an important time of healing and peace for me. I really felt the hand of the Lord on me while I was there. I left Kansas city on Saturday and drove to Fargo North Dakota. I was really happy that this was to be my stopping point as I drove the last 2.5 hours through ice, blowing snow and blizzard conditions. I drove the last four hours home on Sunday arriving at 4:30pm at my aunt and uncle's place. I am thankful for all the prayers that went up while I was on the road and for all the support I have recived.
Praise for:
safety on the road
no problems with my car
provision for hotel, food and gas
peace about the situation
my time at IHOP


Prayer for
settling back in
finding a job
finding a place to live
wisdom in the decisions that must be made
continued strength and courage for the journey ahead

And so my journey has taken an unexpected twist however I remain his faithful servant as I continue this journey to the next phase.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

An unusual twist in the journey

So much has happened since the last post. I spent my Christmas break here at the school which provided me with the rest and relaxation I needed to continue on to the next leg of my journey at school. The christmas break provided me with much time to search out what God wanted me to do in light of some circumstances that came up during this time. I spent much of my break in worship an prayer seeking the face of God.

I will share a little of the journey with you. During the first week of my break I discovered that my first appeal for my student loan had been denied. I spoke with them to find out what else I could do to receive the money. I did what they ask and sent them the information late on the wednesday and received a reply friday morning to say they had denied my loan and would not be re evaluating it. This was a very hard thing to hear as I am certain that I was and am supposed to be here. I spent some time with the school financial aid office to see if there was something that could be done from there end to enable me to stay. I didn't recieve any reply back before Christmas therefore it became a time of seeking God and waiting to hear what would be said. When the school offices opened up after Christmas break I sought out the leaders to see what was deceided. It was decided that they would be able to give me a loan of 8000$ for the whole year which left me with a deficI it of 16000$ for the year. I knew the only way I would be able to get this money would be through a miracle from God. I spent the last week before school in prayer and fasting to see what I should do. I felt the Lord telling me to stay but I also knew that I needed to be realistic. This was a huge journey of faith.

The decision I reached was that I would stay until the 20th of January and see what the Lord provided. If he provided the money for me to stay then I would stay otherwise I would be dropping out of my classes and returning to Winnipeg for the begining of February. I felt that this left room for my faith to grow and gave the Lord a chance to work on my behalf while at the same time being realistic and not taking advantage of the school.
Well the 20th came and went with no money, with many tears and feelings of uncertainty I knew what I needed to do. I let my advisor know that I would be dropping out. She is very sad to see me go but has given me hope that the courses I have taken and have transfered are not going anywhere and they will do everything they can to help me finish. I am not sure when i will be able to return to school, howev
er there has been absolutely no doubt that this is where I am supposed to finish my education and this step to come out here was in the Lord's hand and directing. I have loved my time here and so with much sadness I return to the Land of my birth to work and seek the Lord's face as to what he has for me right now. I will miss those who have touched my life and whose lives I have touched. I will miss the friendships that have formed and the international family I now have. The plan at this point is to return to Winnipeg and find a place to live and a job, saving up money to return to school and paying off my existing debts. While I am not sure how all this is going to work I know that the Lord has it all under control. I remain his faithful servant as I continue down the path he has for me.

Prayer Requests:
Strength as I say goodbye
Saftey as I drive back
A job when I return
A place to live
Strength to reintergrate myself to life in Canada
Money to return and get set up
Money for a block heater for the car
Warm weather and no snowstorms as I drive

Praise for:
Understanding roommate
Friendships that will last a lifetime
Professor who want to see me suceed and have done everything possible to enable me to stay
Understanding from friends and family as I face this difficult step in the journey
A car that I will be able to import without any complications
A car to drive home

As Always I remain the Lord's faithful servant and wonder where he will lead me next.

Friday, December 10, 2010

The completion of the first semester

Wow, so the goal was to update my blog more often than what has happened. This is an update but also a Christmas Letter.

The Semester began with much excitement and many challenges. I began to experience culture shock within the first week of being here. The temperature reached 110 Fahrenheit.(44 Celsius). For someone who is used to being on the go and simply drinking more water this was a hard adjustment to make. There were several times when as my usual self I would venture out with a goal in mind only to discover that it was too hot to be out and I was feeling sick. One time in early October I decided to venture out at 4:30 for a walk to Walmart which is 20 minutes from my place. I arrived there and began to feel sick because I overheated and therefore needed to wander around Walmart for an hour before walking back so as to not overheat. My roommate often cautioned me about the heat and being careful.

It was a nice reprieve from the heat to be able to go back to Abbotsford for Canadian Thanksgiving and for my sisters wedding. the wedding was beautiful and I am very happy for my little sister who got married. 

A week after arriving I was rear ended and so my car was written off. It began when I went out to explore the city and try and figure my way around. I was stopped at a stoplight and stalled my car. Before I was able to move an SUV came up behind me and ran into me. When we pulled over to exchange information. The comment she made was that she saw green. I was struck at how funny this was as I had heard how fast Californians drive. After everything was said and done I was amazed at such a comment and can only say "WELCOME TO CALIFORNIA" The ordeal of having to deal with the insurance agency was challenging and multicultural. The write off of my car turned out to be a blessing in disguise because of the challenges of student loans.

Ah Student Loans!! Anyone who has had to deal with the government agency of student loans has had the pleasure of dealing with their beauracracy and paperwork. The semester began with needing information from the school which they could not provide as they were in the middle of an audit to be able to give student loans to their US students which included the Canadian ones as well.
What to say, the first semester is complete. It has been a semester filled with challenges, triumphs and joys. I have thoroughly enjoyed my first classes. I have had a couple entry level courses and a couple second year courses.

The community learning and classes have been amazing. I have seen the value of coming here for school. The Lord truly was directing my steps. He knew what classes I have needed. The classes have helped me grow in amazing ways both personally and professionally. This semester I had Mentoring and Connecting( a first year class designed to help you make it through seminary), Interpersonal Communication, Research and Testing (a stats class on how to do testing), Church and God's Mission, and Clinical Assessment(how to do the paperwork of counselling and suicide intervention) equaling 10 units. I really enjoyed my classes and the work that it took to do them and know that I am better prepared to become a counsellor now. I am looking forward to my classes next semester although it it going to be a very busy semester as I have more classes and units. I am taking Counselling couples, Psychopathology(all about diagnostics), Human Sexuality, Counselling Families, Counselling children and pre practicum plus getting ready for practicum next semester. This all equals 13 units and 9 units is considered full time. Even though it is alot I am eager to learn all of these subjects and know that they will help me grow. The reason I must take them all this semester and am not able to spread them out a bit more is due to my hopeful graduation date of May 2012 and practicum next year which is very busy.

Through the Christmas Break I am looking forward to time spent relaxing and with friends. I have decided not to go home for Christmas this year because I need the time to get some real life stuff done like looking for another car and getting a head start on some of the reading for the next semester. Through my Christmas break I plan to do a lot of Cross Stitch, Pleasure Reading, work on a couple puzzles, hang out with friends, sleep in till all hours of the day, and listen to the IHOP webstream. There are several families staying here through Christmas so the plan is to spend Christmas eve and Christmas day together having dinner together and hanging out.

The Lord has been good throughout my time here and I have thoroughly enjoyed it. I look forward to seeing what God will do over the next year and the next three semesters (that is all I have left-amazing). I am excited to be back in school learning and growing. i have also come to see that the friends I make here will last through the years and challenges to come. The Lord has been good and has given me many blessings as I began school again. I am leaning on him to carry me through this time here as I finish my schooling. Even though there have been challenges I do not regret moving across the country and into another country to finish school. The Lord knew that I needed the community here in Fresno for the support and learning for where he is taking me. After the experiences that I had at Providence I know that the Lord has truly led me here and has his hand in it. He has provided restorative experiences and has provided me with a new way of learning and leaning on people. I am praying that he will continue to carry me through. My prayer through this time is that I may be found leaning on my beloved as I come through this time in my life.

Praise for

a great semester
new friends
financial provision
an awesome roommate
a church community to fellowship with

Pray for
a good car to carry me through- the bus system here is pitiful
continued financial provision
continued strength in the coming semester
strengthened friendships
I will remain faithful to the call he has placed on my life

I thank you all for your prayers and support over the last semester and ask for your continued prayers and support as I carry out the call he has placed upon my life. Pray that I will remain faithful and strong through the difficult times. May the Lord Bless you and Keep you. Merry Christmas all

Thursday, August 19, 2010

The begining of the journey

The journey of  Fresno California began two years ago after I had thrown up my hands and given up on school and God because I was so discouraged and burnt out of school. At this time I deceided to take some time off school to work and rejuventate. This began a time of healing and seeing the Lord work in amazing ways in my life and my heart. Shortly after quitting school the Lord spoke to my heart and told me that I would be completing my degree and planted the idea of Fresno California in my head. At this point I did not want to come because I did not want to leave my home, family, friends and job to move. I wanted to stay in Winnipeg to complete my degree. This began a time of me saying no to God. He didn't let me off the hook of course and kept quietly insisting on Fresno over the next little while at the same point giving me the space I needed to deal with different things and heal in many areas.

This last September the Lord spoke to my heart and said that I would be in school in the fall and that it would be in the states. At this time I still didn't really want to go but said ok Lord if that is what you want then I will go but I don't like it. Over the next little while I began the process of admissions and the Lord began the process of preparing my heart so that I would be excited about coming to the states for school. Through this time the Lord also brought me into a deeper richer walk with him as he revealed himself to me in a variety of ways through different means. Three weeks before I was to leave I discovered that I had problems with my student loans so I needed to know whether to continue on this journey or to stay in Canada. Through much prayer and waiting on the Lord he revealed to me that I was still to go and that he would take care of me.

So on August 11 2010 I departed from Winnipeg for the USA with my car packed to the max and praying that I would be able to make it through the border with no issues as the money had not yet come through for school. The last year the Lord had placed a burden on my heart to go to the International House of Prayer (IHOP) for a few days before coming to school. So I made my trip a little longer (about 6hrs and 3 days longer) than it needed to be and drove to IHOP in Kansas City for a 3 days. While at IHOP the Lord met me in so many amazing ways through confirmation to my soul, through visions, prophecies and through the giving of a calling that he had for me. The joy of the Lord filled my soul as he rejeuvenated me and filled me for the journey ahead. I was very blessed to be able to spend this time in the presence of the Lord through fasting, worship and intercession. This was a very important transition piece for me as I closed this last chapter in Winnipeg and began this new Chapter in Fresno California. After leaving IHOP I spent two full days driving to get to Fresno which I thoroughly enjoyed even though there were many difficult parts to the driving. The mountains were very difficult to drive as I was going minimum of 100-120km/hr as the speed limit through mountain ranges comparable to Rogers pass or the Kokahala in BC. The driving in the states is very different than in Canada as everything is much faster. The typical speed on the interstates is and highways is 120-140km/hr and while I do like speed this is still much faster than I am used to going. I loved driving across the states and found the states to be very beautiful but especially loved driving through Utah country. I arrived in Fresno late the evening of the 16th to discover that the Lord had gone before me and placed me in a roommate situation which couldn't have been better. As we spent time getting to know each other we discovered that the Lord has truly put us together for a reason. I am excited to see what all the Lord will do through this relationship. I got here to find that my bed was made for the night and there were towels for me to use and enough food in the fridge to last us a day or so.  I arrived here to discover not only do I have an amazing roommate but the Lord has placed me in an amazing community of people who love him and embrace others. I am excited about the classes and the comunity the Lord has placed me in. I know that I am here for a reason and am excited to see him move and work through me.
While things have been great please continue to pray for me as

I adjust to living in another country and in heat that is extreeme (I have to learn to do things in the cooler part
of the day and let myself adjust to the heat)

I adjust to being back in school

I deal with international issues like transfering my car

Finances to come through- the school has been gracious in allowing me to start as we wait for student loans to be figured out

A good church family to be found

Stay tuned for more info on how the Lord has been at work in my life as I strive to live faithful before him